I need to take my own advice and take some time for self-care this weekend. A year ago this coming week we had a miscarriage and it’s hitting me really hard now. We weren’t very far along and didn’t plan for this baby but it still meant the world. My daughter was so excited to be a big sister. But when I started getting cramps and spotting my heart sunk. I knew I was going to lose the baby. It was a really difficult time and a year later I am still struggling. But this past week or so has been really rough. I know this means I need to slow down and take time for myself. I won’t over schedule myself during the weekend. Also, I will allow myself to sleep in and not feel guilty. Maybe I’ll paint my toe nails or use my body scrub for a little spa like experience. Journaling would be perfect for this so I can reflect back on this past year and how I am doing with all of this. I had to be strong for my daughter and continue doing so. She always talks about how she misses Peanut (our name for the baby while I was pregnant) and how she wishes I had the baby. It’s so sad that I couldn’t give that to her. It’s so upsetting to me that I didn’t get to hold my precious baby in my arms. So I will hold my daughter tight this weekend. I was blessed with one child and she is just amazing and my world. But a piece of my heart will always be with Peanut. I feel like something is missing.
- sleep in
- take a bath
- snuggle time with my daughter
- enjoy a glass of wine
- read a good book
- allow myself to feel whatever emotions I need to feel
Moms during these hard seasons of your life, take the time to rest and breathe. Enjoy your little ones and enjoy yourself.